The clock showed 5 pm. After getting out of auto rickshaw, I rushed towards the building. Instead of taking building lift, I started climbing the steps.
“Chum chum Chum Chum,” the big earring I was wearing made sounds.
Thursday evening is for Guruji’s group meditation.
Meditation had already started, and I was 2 minutes late. I quickly put my bags somewhere and joined the group.
Before starting meditation, the first step is a body-energizing activity where we twist, stretch, rotate, and shake the body.
As I jumped to shake my legs, the big earring on my left side fell down, making a loud sound.
“Chum”
The entire hall was quiet, and my earring made that sound again… “Chum Chum Chum Zhum zhum….”
An old lady turned her head 90% degrees and looked at me. Out of embarrassment, I didn’t make eye contact. I grabbed the fallen earring and put it back in my left ear.
In every meditation, I take the front seat facing Guruji’s face.
“Help me deepen my meditation today,” I requested my Guru in my mind.
The 3-hour meditation went so well. Along with meditation, we did prayers, bhajan, affirmations, and book reading.
At the end of it, I felt so light..like a free bird. Group meditation has power. I happily thanked everyone and left the hall.
Since Saturday until I attended this meditation on Thursday, I was feeling so heavy.
In last weekend’s post, I mentioned that I will follow discipline even more. To become more focused, I withdrew my energy and attention from some areas of my life, and as a result, I faced withdrawal symptoms.
Our human mind can take us to places where the most advanced means of transportation would fail to reach.
After such a long time, I felt this heavy—exhausted physically and mentally. Emotions were all over the place. When was the last time I felt this heavy? I don’t even remember.
I have reached a stage where I can sit in meditation for a longer period of time.
In this whole week, I missed myself. I am my great entertainer. When I feel heavy, I lose the ability to smile, make others smile, crack silly jokes, and have disturb self-meditation practice.
Do you remember when we were kids and things didn’t go our way, how we used to react? We used to cry out of helplessness, blame others, complain to our elders… “They did it to me,” fight out of anger.
As we grow and learn that no one else is responsible for our condition but we are wholly responsible for it. Then there is no one to blame.
What we can do is make peace with the situation, ask God to bless all people who are involved in it, and move forward.
My Guru, Shri Paramhansa Yogananda, has highlighted the importance of group meditation. In my group meditation classes, I am a giver. In Guruji’s meditation classes, I am a receiver.
A person has to handle both giving and receiving. Too much giving without filling one’s own cup can drain that person.
It is important to just do your best to keep yourself in balance. One of the first things that cuases Energy misalignment, is asking too much of yourself in terms of time and efforts. In other words, we can not burn the candle at both sides, so that you are physically tired and expect yourself to have cheerful mood. So the rule of thumb is ” First I am going to be very very very happy and then do everything I have time to do after that.”
For me, riding a motorcycle, gardening, and the practice of meditation make me feel happy and peaceful. What are your ways to make yourself happy?
What I need to work on is deepening my meditation and the proper utilization of the energy and joy it gives me. Long story short, as I am writing this post, I can feel myself in a much better place.
Meditation is the supreme way to feel a connection with the source energy… GOD.
We are all extensions of source energy. When we allow that source energy to flow through us, we feel bright and beautiful, alive in our body, and others see the magic in us. But it only seems like magic because it is experienced by very few. It’s not magic; it’s available to everyone.
In trading, we have a rule: after a big profit or a big loss, take a pause, reflect, and do not overtrade.
Similarly in yoga we have a practice of reflection.
I really wanted to make this post light, but it’s not happening. I will wait for my sense of humor to come back. Sometimes I wonder if there is a competition between my sense of humor and my English… who will win… hehe.
Diwali is here. For us (Maharashtrians), our first day of Diwali is tomorrow, November 12th. Time to decide which saree to wear on the first day.
Also, some travel plans next week, so I need to pack my bags.
I wish you a happy Diwali and a wonderful weekend, sweetheart.
Stay bless, stay happy always.
Much love,
Arati
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